*a love story*

one day, i woke up early in the morning to watch the sunrise,
ah, the beauty of God's creation is beyond description.
As i watched i praised God for the beautiful work
As i sat there i felt the Lord's presence with me.
He asked me..

"do you love me?"

i answered,
"of course, God! you are my Lord and Saviour!"
then he asked,
if you were physically handicapped, would you still love me?
i was perplexed, i looked down upon my arms, legs and the rest of my body
and wondered how many things i wouldn't; be able to do the things that i took for granted
and i answered,
it would be tough Lord, but i would still love you.

Then the Lord asked me,
if you were blind, would you still my love my creation?
How could i love something without being able to see it?
then, i thought of all the blind people in the world and
how many of them still loved God and and His creation?
So i answered,
its hard to think of it but i would still love you

The Lord then asked me.
If you were deaf, would you still listen to my word?
How could i listen to anything being deaf? Then, i understood.
Listening to God's word isnot merelyusing our ears but our hearts
i answered,
it would be tough but i would still listen to your word

the Lord then asked,
if you were mute, would you still praise My Name?
How could i praise without a voice?
Then it occurred to me; God wants us to sing from our very heart and soul
it never matters how we sound like
and praising God is not always with a song but we are persecuted,
we give God praise with our words of thanks
So i answered,
Though i could not physically sing, i would still praise Your Name

And the Lord asked,

"DO YOU REALLY LOVE ME?"

With courage and a strong conviction, i answered boldly,

"yes, Lord!
i love you because You are the one and true God!"

i thought i had answered well.. but..
God asked,

then, why do YOU sin?

i answered,
because i am human only. i am not perfect.

"then why in times of peace do you stray the furthest?
why only in times of trouble do you pray the earnest?"

..... no answers.. only tears..

the Lord continued:

why only sing at fellowships and retreats?
why seek me only in times and retreats?
why seek me only in terms of worship?
why ask things selfishly?
why ask things unfaithfully?

...the tears continued to roll down my cheeks...

why are you ashamed of me?
why are you not spreading the good news?
why in terms of persecution, you cry to others when i offer My shoulder to cry on?
why make excuses when i give you opportunities to serve in My name?

..i tried to answer but there was no answer to give..

you are blessed with life. i made you not to throw the gift away.
i have blessed you with talents to serve Me,
but you continue to turn away,
i have revealed my Word to you
BUT
you do not gain in knowledge
i have spoken to you
BUT
your ears were closed
i have shown My blessings to you
BUT
you sat idly by as they were pushed away
i have heard your prayers and answered them all

"DO YOU TRULY LOVE ME?"

i could not answer, "How could i?"
i was embarrassed beyond belief.
i had no excuse. What could i say to this?
When my heart had cried out and the tears had flowed,
i said..

"please forgive me, Lord. i am unworthy to be your child"

the Lord answered,

"that is my Grace, My child"

i asked,

"then, why do you continue to forgive me?
why do you love me so?"

the Lord answered,

because
you are my creation
you are my child
i will never abandon you
when you cry
i will have compassion and cry with you
when you shout with joy,
i will laugh with you
When you fall,
i will raise you up
When you are tired,
i will carry you
i will be with you till the end of the days
and
i will love you forever

...Never had i cried so hard before...

How could i have been so cold?

How could i have hurt God as i had done?

then i asked dear Lord,
"How much do you love me?"

~the Lord stretch out His arms and i saw his nail-pierced hand~

i bowed down at the feet of Christ my saviour. And for the first time..
i truly prayed