~sighs~

~sighs~

what can i say now?
after knowing about an uncle
of a friend of mine.
suffering from cancer.

WHAT
COMES TO YOUR MIND
ABOUT THIS
BLOODY SICKNESS
CALLED
CANCER?

why on earth do you exist?
what have we done?
why the innocent?
it just reallly hurts.
whenever the word cancer
reaches my ear.
i just hate it so much.
what else can i do?

~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.
N.O.T.H.I.N.G
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.

all you can do
is just to do whatever you can
to take the pain away
to keep silent
to cry quietly
in our hearts
to wait patiently
to be strong
eventhough it hurts
while waiting
to keep praying
and
to
ALWAYS
be prepared
for whatever comes in our way.

*looking back at the times when it was hard*

it was hard.
it was really hard.
everyone in my family
we struggled
we were tough
we did everything we could
we went through ALL the procedures
all i can say was
we really DID
E-VE-RY-THING
....

*sobs*

i guess He who is so great
calls him
it was his time
never have i imagined
that it would happen this soon
what is fair and unfair to us in this life?
it sometimes
came to my mind
is it worth living?

im not blaming you dear God
im not

i was just wondering.
ive never wanted to imagine
someone i love
GONE forever
in just a blink of an eye
it felt like as if it just happened yesterday
clearly
it felt hard to breathe
i really feel it that way
i have never felt that pain before
i really do not wana face it again
but
in this world
nothing lasts forever
is it true?

CANCER
i HATE you much
you kill the ones that i love
though many things have been done
chemotherapy, radiotherapy
surgery
all those medical
we thought everything would be fine
we thought it would go away forever
yet
we were proven wrong
once it breeds
it will stay
and never go
such a parasite it is
i just cant help it
but
dear Lord
there are reasons when things do happen
right?
be it a punishment
or
a blessing
everything happens for a reason

lotsa love,
~baby lyn~