letters to my sweetheart

sweetheart

afraid

every man is afraid of something
that's when you know
he is in love with you;

when he is afraid
of
losing you..

~i will hold on to you my love~
i love you

personality

"when trust is broken it is the end of the relationship"

true? yes? no? many relationships have been broken certain reasons? you get cheated? perhaps? there's just no more spark or commitment? third party problem? as it is common..

ingredients to separation

1. lack of trust leads to? suspicion
2. suspicion generates anger
3. anger causes enmity
4. ENMITY

no pointing fingers
*we all look forward to being loved and respected. i mean. who doesnt? many people are afraid to lose face. Generally, everyone makes mistakes. When one makes mistakes, he or she will look for a scapegoat to point the finger at.. Pointing fingers would only result WAR!! we should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at us. does that make any sense? it is a fact however. *smiles* well, if we forgive others, others will tend to ignore our mistakes too.

creating perfect relationships?

*nah... why would you call a government matchmaker to find your perfect soulmate? to have a perfect relationship it would be best that you love an imperfect person perfectly.. agree? i quote from this anonymous that a perfect match can only happen between a blind wife and a deaf husband. trying to imagine the situation here eyh? The blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. see it now? well many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and tends to dream of a perfect relationship. It is unfortunate that when the excitement wears off they wake up and discover that marriage is NOT a bed of roses.

who is better than who?

*any relationship will fail if one party tries to overpower another or demand too much. Alot of people tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change their bad habits after marriage. WRONG! According to the Chinses proverbs, it is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character. Nevertheless, it is not easy to change and having high expectation on changing your spouse character will only cause dissapointment and unpleasantness.


are you patient?
*patience indeed is a must in a relationship. When you lose patience, wrong words are spoken. Hearts will be broken and it will be difficult to mend. A feeling of regret. Words cant be taken back that easily. Too often we tend to fail to recognize the differences between the person and the performance. Sometimes, or probably most of the time we tend to forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge. in this world, accidents happen. mistakes happen. without mistakes how will we learn? everyone makes mistakes. you. me. us. them. yes. everyone. however, the actions that we take while we are at rage will haunt us, forever..

note to self

i will not let anything distract me
i will not let anything distract me
i will not let anything distract me
i will not let anything distract me
i will not let anything distract me
i will not let anything or anyone distract me
i will not let anything or anyone distract me
i will not let anything or anyone distract me
i will not let anyone distract me
i will not let anything distract me
i will not let anything distract me
i will not let anything distract me
i will not let anything to get my mind distracted
i will not let anything on my mind bug me
i will not i will not i will not
i will concentrate and do my best
i must focus
i cant care about unnecessary things
i must focus i must focus i must focus
i must not get distracted i must get undistracted
dont be distracted focus on my goal get rid of stupid minds
dont get distracted dont be a bimbo
dont be like bimbos not worth no one likes bimbos
dont be dumb be intelligent dont be useless
dont be hopeless. have a mindset. dont give up.
take harsh criticisms. best advice is from the worst criticism.
care less about stupid things. set your mind on goals.
dream and act. finish exams and proceed to next semester.
dont fail dont fail dont fail dont fail dont fail dont fail dont fail
dont always think about enjoyment. enjoyment comes in future
struggle first. enjoy later. think that way. think that way.
dont get distracted. dont get distract. dont get distracted.
dont fail. dont fail. dont fail. dont fail. you'll look stupid. dont fail.
dont be jobless. dont be jobless. the world needs you. family needs you.
dont be jobless. dont be a failure. dont waste time. dont waste time.
dont waste time. time is precious. time is gold. dont waste time.
focus. focus. focus. focus. focus. focus. focus. focus. focus. focus. focus.
you know you can do it. you believe you can. you can.
put your head in the game. be optimistic. optimistic. optimistic. optimistic.
do not be a bimbo. do not know nothing. dont waste your time.
dont be jobless among friends. be successful. be an example.
have a future. be confident. work hard now. dont get distracted.

*to note myself that i can do it. to put all those negative thoughts aside. ok. im done. it worked.*
now study!

a song specially for you

You taught me everything
Everything you've given me
I'll always keep it inside
You're the driving force in my life, yeah

There isn't anything
Or anyone that I could be
And it just wouldn't feel right
If I didn't have you by my side

You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were gray
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me

And no one else can be
What you have been to me you will always be
You will always be the girl
In my life for all times

You're always there for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did

And you took up for me
When everyone was downin' me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on

There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me and say to me
I can face anything

And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You'll always be, you will always be
The woman in my life

Never gonna go a day without you
Fills me up just thinkin' about you
I'll never go a day
Without my mama

Mama you know I love you
Mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like tears from the stars
Mama I just want you to know lovin' you is like food to my soul

i love you mummy

R.I.P

~may the souls and the souls of the faithful departed rest in peace~
......AMEN.....

it is our first all soul's day and our first time visiting your grave.. it has never been the same when you're gone.. we visit you today and washed your home.. you're always handsome to us babuk.. we missed you dearly.. we knew you love white colour so much and we bought you white roses..

koko don also bought red roses for you, you know Buk?
they are really pretty and i bet you're gonna love it too..
they're specially for you and i took a picture of it..

...............................................................
roses are red
violets are blue
nothing but death
can separate us from you
however when we feel sad
we still think of you
with all the advices that you have said
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we're doing fine now here babuk.
guide us and guard us in this world ok babuk?
help our family.

babuk..
i have been doing lots of research on our culture
many books that i've read have your name on them
your pictures
how proud i am to be a bidayuh and
to have a well respected idol like you
you're our hero and our idol
always you will be
and now i realize how important it is for you
to write a book
and be the author of the respective book
however, i know you're at your
forever and everlasting Jerusalem
take care always
we love you so much

~let the perpetual light shine upon him~


may he rest in peace
amen.