please do me a favour

can you please do me a favour?
please?
when i do not want to talk about it
means i have already forgotten about it..
and could you not always remind me about it when i know how ive been such a fool?
when i dont want to talk about it. means i do not want to remember about it.
when i do not want to remember about it means i do not want to recall about it
so please.
dont remind me to recall the past if you really dont want me to go on recalling about it.
better off said him.
i have done my part so much to distant myself from everything and stop all the bullshits from happening. stopping all the contacts and stuff.
so please. every single time. im reminded of those filthy past. i admit. its my fault.
i know the fingers are still pointing at me.
but dammit. seriously.
past is past.
all those words used against me.
i know its wrong. so please. help me forget about it.
saving all those bullshits . wont it just hurt you?
making me more hurt? making yourself hurt only?
asking me to delete the past and everything when you yourself dont know how to delete it?
try taking it for your own advice.
please..
please do me a favour..
thats all im asking for..
hoping you can do it for me..