relationships

easy to fall in love but hard to stay in love?
how could this happen? why does this happen?
to stay in love is your effort dont you think so?
im not saying im perfect or whatsoever thats on your mind now..
however all i can say is relationships are meant to be imperfect right?
every one dreams to have a perfect relationship without any fights or any third parties that will just ruin your lovey dovey feeling till it your relationship is thrown away and what the hell?
you're treated like trash..
how heartless can anyone be?
to think that their ready to commit themselves into a relationship that they think they're gona last forever.. then poof! after a tiny insy winsy little misunderstanding..
'can we break?" or "you're not understanding".. and the story goes on..
why oh why?
sometimes random thoughts just struck me..
making me wonder.. why cant we live our own fairytale world? why do we have to go through all the consequences..
why are there obstacles in relationships? why is it that when we want something or probably when we need something to make us happy in our life; we have to take risks and go through all the pain? why is it when you're in a relationship some things you cant handle them yourself? can you? those times when you feel so vulnerable.. the pain thats deep inside.. no one else can see.. when you cant talk to anyone else.. even if you wanted to talk to someone you trust.. could they EVER be trusted? im thinking hard now.. and my thoughts are twisting round and round..
however there wouldnt be any thrill wouldnt it? if the respective couple didnt take the risk of the rollercoaster relationship how are they able to understand each other right? our hearts are as fragile as how anybody could imagine.. anyone could feel so hurt that they tend to do things they think they couldnt do.. why on earth would anyone feel so heartbroken that they want to take their own lives after falling outta love? is it pathetic enough? nevertheless.. why is it that when youre happily living with someone special.. bad things happen? how do you say this? lets take death for example? is life that fair? is life really unfair? it is wrong to blame God isnt it? yes it is..
we are living on Earth.. not our premanent home.. our temporary home.. where we are put to the test.. and to save our souls.. after living on this earth for many years i thank my God so much for everything He has given me.. i believe in Him and all that has happened for a reason.. with this i shall end this post that i started.. thoughts on my mind that i cant talk to anyone.. hence i write them.. its just how i express when im thinking hard and i have the time all to myself.. at the corner of my room.. in the dark.. thinking..

history. mystery. gift.

yesterday was history,
tomorrow is a mystery,
today is a gift;
that is why it is called
the present.

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every year could it be that every one has new year resolutions?
does it even matter or do anyone even bother to ACTUALLY follow those resolutions?
goodness. unless you really are that serious with them. it could be possible right?
it has been several months that i've not updated my blog have i?
how to summarize the past few months?
where did i stop?
* june?
pretty much my sweetheart's month.

* july?
the month that i was born. of course well celebrated. definitely not with balloons and clowns
or how you expect to see it on "sweet 16". simple birthdays are just fine as long as your family and loved ones are there.

* august?
went to singapore with my lovely girls.. they are da bomb. like seriously. they are. omg. its like shopping spree over there. love everything there. woohoo. i will come back for you singapore.

yes yes. girls are into shopping. its natural i guess? august did past quite fast. ooo. it rhymes. alright alright. sometimes i lost track of time. i can forget the dates. believe me. i didnt realise how time flies only when i checked the date. and counting down the days. oh my goodness. just a few more weeks till my final exam. A FEW MORE WEEKS! note to self. i'd better start early. i definitely do NOT want to burn midnight oil. i gotta be ready. FAILING IS A NO NO. i repeat.

failing is a no no!!

i think i made that pretty clear dont you think? obviously. *sarcastic face* but seriously. who wants to fail? failing means you gott repeat. how boring can that be? its fear. its money. its time wasting. gotta put my head in the game. just few weeks of torcher. yes yes yes!! and and and..
hollies are earlier this year!! cant wait for it!! memorable it would be and pictures of course! not to forget. wanna know it? definitely will blog about it on the next chapter! gotta change the gear and get ready to.. hmm.. do what? yeah. this word.

S-T-U-D-Y.

wow. this could be a really long one. well it doesnt matter does it? im not free to update my blog. well in this thing you call LIFE has those times when its sweet, salty, sour and bitter!! yay me!
so no matter what you do. when you feel like youre so down, down, down, down, down till the deeper part of the earth? (exaggerating mode) just take it like a pinch of salt and dont take it too hard. you'll be fine. trust me!

toodles!

one year

it has been almost a year without you by my side..
assigned to do a really sad poem..
all i did was having you in my mind..
and i could pen it on paper
writing the sadness and despair
and how much i..
no no..
how much all of us miss you..
we still cant believe..
that you're actually not here with us..
all we do now is always to have you in our prayers..
no words can express how much we miss you and love you..

watching you

this is for you my dear friend.
the previous post i wrote for my babuk.
and so i thought of you too.
strive for the best and always do your best every single day dear.
he is watching you from up above.
encouraging you to live life to the fullest
being your very own guardian angel,
protecting you wherever you go with his knight and shining armor.
he will always guide you dearie.
all you have to do is use him as in inspiration.
dont hold yourself back and make the impact bring you down.
no no. many have lost loved ones like yourself. but they strive for the best.
they struggled. nevertheless, they picked themselves and managed to
pick their pieces and use superglue to glue 'em. =)
i know the heart hurts badly; cant be compared to physical injury.
pray darlin' in everything you do.
and everything is gonna be ok.
trust me.
loves from me,
~lyn~

dont think about him as gone away
his journey's has just begun
life holds so many obstacles
the earth is only one

Just think of him as resting
from the sorrows and the fears
in a place of warmth and comfort
where there are no days and years

think how he must be wishing
that we could know today
how nothing but our sadness
can really pass away

And think of him as living
in the hearts of those he touches; especially you,
for nothing loved is ever lost
and he was loved so much.
He was loved dearly
and still is loving and missing dearly,
by you.

His place

God looked around his garden
And He found an empty place
He looked down upon the earth
And saw your tired face
He put His arms around you
And lifted you to rest
God's garden must be beautiful
He always takes the best

He knew that you were suffering.
He knew you were in pain
He knew that you will never get well
on earth again

He saw the road was getting rough
And the hills were hard to climb
So he closed your weary eyelids
And whispered, "Peace be Thine"

It broke our hearts to lose you
But you didn't go alone
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home

Dearest babuk this is dedicated to you..
i hope you read this..
i miss you..
so how is it up there?
how is this place called heaven?
is it as beautiful as how it is?
is His garden better than what we have on earth?













we are always praying dearest babuk.. help us go through the trials and obstacles in life.
Prayer; if you believe, you will receive whatever you ask in prayer. ~mt 21:22~

in prayers.. you cant expect a miracle that fast can you?
it will gradually show..
and we cant be too shallow by only praying when we are in need..
we shouldnt forget Him and our prayers when we're happy.

to end this.. what do you think about heaven?

heaven's not a placethat you go when you die
its that moment in life when you actually feel

-ALIVE-

lice

eeewww!!
LICE!
they're such NO-NO's
especially on your boo-ti-pull silky
long hair!

well this ain't what im suppose to talk about anyway.
i wanted to refer to LIES actually.

~the most dangerous lies are the lies you tell yourself~

IS THAT A FACT?

muh-miss yeww