Dates

Ever wondered who invented dates? Figures? Numbers? Months? Days? Time? Here I am again. It's exactly like what? It's like 5 months I've not update this blog. Yes I have really been busy. University life. I'm not complaining. It's awesome. The experiences I've had. The opportunities I've got myself after working my ass off just to improve myself and to prove to others with what I'm capable of doing. You see I'm just at this place just wondering and spending time with myself. Thinking. Wondering. How'd the future be.. Sometimes we have this anxiety in us.. We're so anxious of the future yet were still afraid of what's going to happen.. This is just a short blog.. But yah.. Every date leads to every memory... Bittersweet memories.. Everything happens but we tend to ask ourselves why.. Even if we were to ask God why could He even answer? All we could believe is that he plans for us. There you go.

Lotsa love, 

Lyn-lyn

From Me to You

Dear You,

Happy Valentine's Day,Sweetheart! I want you to know that although I feel depressed and weak at times I do feel all my troubles are slowly drifting away when i look at you. Whenever you look away I steal glances to look at you and do you know what I thought of at times like that? I smiled and you often asked why. I feel happy that I am in love with you. I admire your every strength and loyalty in our relationship. You make me realize each time that im not living a broken dream but while i feel down at a certain time I really love that moment as well. Do you remember the day when i felt like the whole life just gave up on me? It was the day that you get to know the real me and the day i know i can share all my feelings with you. I was thankful to have you by my side when I shed my tears. On my saddest days I think of you many times more than i normally do. I want to hold you tight and let you know just what an important person you are to me. More than that I am very grateful that we fell in love with each other in the first place and having you as my girlfriend is the best thing that has ever happened in my life. 

Yours faithfully,

~me~

Little Things

its the little details

 that are vital

little things make big things happen

so

enjoy the little things for one day you may look back

and 

realise that they were the big things

God knows we're worth it

  

days

YEARS 

time 

passes by

every joke

every tear

every obstacles

what more can i say?

we have gone through almost everything in these seven years

we've seen each others weakest moments

we stood by each other 

if one fails; one supports

we did our best to support each other in any way we can

we did it again sweetheart!

*hugs!*

yes i am happy that we both are still holding on despite the difficult times we've gone through

honestly it was really difficult seeing you breakdown

the heartache you've been holding on

but i held on and i was there for you, my love.

sometimes, there's just too much words to say you can't seem to know where to start.

however, i would love to thank God for having a lover like you

you are a blessing and a gift to me from Him

thank you as well for always loving me; endlessly

and for being patient and understanding with my studies

you knew how busy i'd be with my music studies yet you understood

thank you so much for supporting me all the way 

im sorry for the mistakes and arguments we had

but im happy that we both learn from them 

and overcome our problems in a mature way

.......

SEVEN

seems like a lucky number

pictures paint a thousand words

well, well

but you see i believe our eyes capture countless pictures

its a matter of how much our brain could restore the memories we wana keep

definitely the good memories

as i looked through all our photographs 

all i could do was smile 

............

happy seventh anniversary sweetheart

i love you

God bless DreLyn

...

distance

~i'll keep my distance~

pen and paper

when you feel you're in a silent room

your mind's starting to linger

all you could do

is to pen down your feelings

or 

compose a song 

doesn't matter

as long as you could express them

well who are we?

we're just humans

with feelings of course

and

we often feel

every single day

emotions

love

hate

anger

hurt

depressed

devastated

betrayed

...

funny how things can change in a nick of time

funny how feelings could fade over the years

funny how the changes around us affect us

...

once upon a time

once upon a time there lived a young girl who was living her dreams as high as anyone could ever dream. in her early years she had to learn as any other children would do. yet she was living a miserable life. in despair she asks herself how could she call a place a home when there were continuous arguments. she was too young and didnt know where to look for shelter to turn away from the storm. all she could do was sob at a corner watching her father lay his fists on her mother. sometimes she would stay in her room; leaving her door ajar listening to their angry voices and hoping it would be over soon. she sees her father laying there; stationery. She watches him from head to toe; all dressed up with his suit. A tear rolled down her rosy cheeks as she started to remember the times where she used to feel so afraid to come home and not wanting to see her mother's bruises her father often gives her. She has so much hatred in her but in this situation she is helpless. She asked her father silently why and told him that it isn't easy to forget the long lines he left on her neck. All her strength she has left was her mother's love. That was her only reason she was living until today. So she bid goodbye to her father. With tears she whispered," I forgive you. I'll be OK."

"i'll be OK"

yes.

the greatest lie anyone could ever tell.

...

its time

after the things you said

all the stories that i've read

i think i'll make it on my own..

which was it?

was she or wasn't she?

or

NEITHER?

SO,

which was it?

untitled

we have our own life story

even the darkest ones are part of our journey

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WHOOPS!

WHOOPSIE DAISIE!

who's in trouble?

beauty and a beat

cause all i need

is a beauty and a beat

that will make my life complete!

someday

Here I am again 
Everybody's screaming 
The walls are closing in 
Swimming up a stream 
Suffocating in between 
I wake up from the dream
I'm still stuck in the middle 
I guess this time I'll wait it out
You push and then you shove 
You hate and then you love 
You try to switch it up 
But you're stuck in the middle 
No matter what you do 
No matter how you choose 
Well, either way you're gonna lose 
When you're stuck in the middle. 
I guess this time I'll wait it out

'Cause 
Someday things will be perfect 
It'll be worth it all this time
I know things will get better 
Hold it together 
Take your time 
You fight until you're free,
You're down on your knees 
Hoping someday you'll make it out 
If you just believe 

be your everything

ready? get set? ..dont go..

Some relationships take time. You can't risk a great friendship for a relationship.

If you want to keep someone in your life, give them some room to grow.

indeed, to maintain a longer relationship having them as friends is alright. maybe it will last between you and them. here's the thing. i bet that many of you have ever felt this way whereby your mind just doesnt seem to cooperate and work together with your heart. it just doesnt connect. when your mind says yes but the heart says no and vice versa. when this happens you just dont know what to do. the people we meet in our lives affects us. the people we mingle with. the relationships we've been in. the people we've lost along the way. nevertheless, the choices we make affects us too; we just have to think too much to make our decisions, be it right or wrong. so what happens if we took the wrong step? so what happens if we took the right one but we feel bad? so what if it feels right but then it hurts? 

our hearts are prolly the most fragile thing and its funny how our senses connects to our feelings. whenever we see an old beggar we feel pity. whenever we listen to stories or words that hurt us, we feel pain. is it fair? no one ever said life would be easy. the choices we all make are the choices that built us and made us to whom we are today. the past mistakes are for us to remember to not repeat it in the future but you see how many do learn from their mistakes and how many know of their mistakes could be stopped; or couldnt?

so should we regret doing something we've not done or should we regret something we've done? well depends on the situation, that's for sure! life isn't fair for some people especially to those who just can't seem to accept criticism from others and often think their right. in this world it is filled with people of many characters and it is up to us to how we are able to handle it. 

can you handle it when you lose someone? truth is everybody will leave. maybe people leave to make us feel stronger. there will be pain at first to have someone leave you or for you to leave someone but we'll be alright. aint that right? as long as we've all got memories to cherish and a future ahead waiting for us to mend that broken heart then we've all gotta do what we all do best; we move on. 

She's gotta do what she's gotta doAnd I've gotta like it or notShe's got dreams too big for this townAnd she needs to give 'em a shotWhatever they are

Looks like she's all ready to leaveNothing left to packAin't no room for me in that carEven if she asked me to tag alongGod, I gotta be strong

She says things are fallin' in placeFeels like they're fallin' apartI painted this big old smile on my faceTo hide my broken heartIf only she knew

This is where I don't sayWhat I want so bad to sayThis is where I want toBut I won't get in the wayOf her and her dreamsAnd spreadin' her wings

She's at the startin' line of the rest of her lifeAs ready as she's ever beenGot the hunger and the stars in her eyesThe prize is hers to win

She's waitin' on my blessingsBefore she hits that open roadBut baby get ready, get set, don't go
..she's gotta do what she's gotta do..

lotsa love,~lyn-lyn~

new year new me?

hello hello!

omgah! its like what? its been few months since my last update eyh? theres too much to say and woah i dont know where to start! my days been really hectic really ever since ive entered university. its not too late to wish everyone a.

. 

i would have updated my blog from time to time. however theres just too much to do in school. what a bummer! its even worst when you can only update your blog when theres wifi. if only my laptop has 3G. BOOM! 

so three weeks of holiday and what am i planning to do? sit around? lay in bed all day doing nothing? beats me. well i returned home and i knew that my great grandmother just passed on. she will be missed dearly.

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anyway,

new year new me?

please brah! what's the difference? i'll tell you what. being in a university is what ive normally expected and im prepared for it. the peer pressure. the packed schedule. the long distance relationship. the money. when did anybody ever say anything is easy? semester one just past and indeed it was a good experience for the first six months staying in Sabah. Honestly, being there for the first few weeks really was tough. How early i actually need to wake up just to catch the bus. How difficult it is to be patient to those who kept pushing and were impatient to ride the bus. How you were unable to communicate with others on the first few weeks just to adapt yourself to the place. Well I survived and it was a good semester. 

my course mates are really nice people. they really seem nice. my batch is filled with different people of different characters but i see each and everyone of them have their own potential. three years seems long but i guess if we look back it would've been just a short while and all we have are just memories for us to remember but then again we still have our future waiting for us. so why miss the past when we can collect and create more memories no? thus, there isnt a new me though its a new year but i do have visions for myself; to always do the best each and every day and not to waste time. not to worry. ive got three weeks of holiday and definitely i will use all the time i need to update my blog. 

lotsa love,

lyn-lyn