update?

wow. its already a year. new year and i have not officially updated my blog in a very nice way due to the fact that im feeling like a have nothing else to do but spend more time with all my heart and soul "marrying" my beloved music. oh puhleese. yeah. classes just started and its been a week already. second week of college. can feel the pressure already huh? yes i do. having responsibilites in school. dammit. many have noticed theres a change in me? not negatively though. im happy its positively. now there are limitations already. pfft. i know right? pressure is good. it keeps me busy. im looking forward. i cant let any thing distract me. i must not. im counting down days till exam. i feel its so close and repertoires that im playing this final year are way outta my league. despite the difficulty i believe and i know i can play. i mean nothing comes easy what. all careers are difficult. i'll find time to update my blog with nice nice shimmery whatsoever thingy so it'll be more pretty. lolz. for the mean time my schedule is pack with assignments and readings and tons of practices. i will survive. Hallelujah! au revoir!

fagg it!

fagg it.. why cant you just let it go and dont bug it off with all those shitty crappy stuff and leave me moving on and REMINISCING all those moments when i wana forget those shitty mistakes. THANX FOR REMINDING.. HOW "GRATEFUL" I AM TO HAVE YOU MAKE ME "REMINISCE" SUCH "SWEET" MOMENTS. ITS ALREADY ENOUGH I KNOW MY MISTAKES AND NOT REPEAT LAH. GIVE IT A BREAK OK?? will you? for goodness sakes. everytime YOU do that it just makes me shaddap. later when answer back say its rude. i know my mistakes already get over it lah. LATER BLAME ME WHY DONT WANA TALK IT OUT? TELL ME. HOW TO TALK WHEN FINGERS ARE ALWAYS POINTING AT ME? KNOWING I ALREADY DID A MISTAKE BEFORE AND HOW SORRY I AM. GET OVER IT OK? SHEESH. i guess bringing back all my MISTAKES was just a way of pulling me down? whats the purpose for? dammit. how emotional i am. yes i am emotional.. NOBODY TO TALK TO RIGHT? so blog about it lah.