relationships

easy to fall in love but hard to stay in love?
how could this happen? why does this happen?
to stay in love is your effort dont you think so?
im not saying im perfect or whatsoever thats on your mind now..
however all i can say is relationships are meant to be imperfect right?
every one dreams to have a perfect relationship without any fights or any third parties that will just ruin your lovey dovey feeling till it your relationship is thrown away and what the hell?
you're treated like trash..
how heartless can anyone be?
to think that their ready to commit themselves into a relationship that they think they're gona last forever.. then poof! after a tiny insy winsy little misunderstanding..
'can we break?" or "you're not understanding".. and the story goes on..
why oh why?
sometimes random thoughts just struck me..
making me wonder.. why cant we live our own fairytale world? why do we have to go through all the consequences..
why are there obstacles in relationships? why is it that when we want something or probably when we need something to make us happy in our life; we have to take risks and go through all the pain? why is it when you're in a relationship some things you cant handle them yourself? can you? those times when you feel so vulnerable.. the pain thats deep inside.. no one else can see.. when you cant talk to anyone else.. even if you wanted to talk to someone you trust.. could they EVER be trusted? im thinking hard now.. and my thoughts are twisting round and round..
however there wouldnt be any thrill wouldnt it? if the respective couple didnt take the risk of the rollercoaster relationship how are they able to understand each other right? our hearts are as fragile as how anybody could imagine.. anyone could feel so hurt that they tend to do things they think they couldnt do.. why on earth would anyone feel so heartbroken that they want to take their own lives after falling outta love? is it pathetic enough? nevertheless.. why is it that when youre happily living with someone special.. bad things happen? how do you say this? lets take death for example? is life that fair? is life really unfair? it is wrong to blame God isnt it? yes it is..
we are living on Earth.. not our premanent home.. our temporary home.. where we are put to the test.. and to save our souls.. after living on this earth for many years i thank my God so much for everything He has given me.. i believe in Him and all that has happened for a reason.. with this i shall end this post that i started.. thoughts on my mind that i cant talk to anyone.. hence i write them.. its just how i express when im thinking hard and i have the time all to myself.. at the corner of my room.. in the dark.. thinking..

history. mystery. gift.

yesterday was history,
tomorrow is a mystery,
today is a gift;
that is why it is called
the present.

.............................................

every year could it be that every one has new year resolutions?
does it even matter or do anyone even bother to ACTUALLY follow those resolutions?
goodness. unless you really are that serious with them. it could be possible right?
it has been several months that i've not updated my blog have i?
how to summarize the past few months?
where did i stop?
* june?
pretty much my sweetheart's month.

* july?
the month that i was born. of course well celebrated. definitely not with balloons and clowns
or how you expect to see it on "sweet 16". simple birthdays are just fine as long as your family and loved ones are there.

* august?
went to singapore with my lovely girls.. they are da bomb. like seriously. they are. omg. its like shopping spree over there. love everything there. woohoo. i will come back for you singapore.

yes yes. girls are into shopping. its natural i guess? august did past quite fast. ooo. it rhymes. alright alright. sometimes i lost track of time. i can forget the dates. believe me. i didnt realise how time flies only when i checked the date. and counting down the days. oh my goodness. just a few more weeks till my final exam. A FEW MORE WEEKS! note to self. i'd better start early. i definitely do NOT want to burn midnight oil. i gotta be ready. FAILING IS A NO NO. i repeat.

failing is a no no!!

i think i made that pretty clear dont you think? obviously. *sarcastic face* but seriously. who wants to fail? failing means you gott repeat. how boring can that be? its fear. its money. its time wasting. gotta put my head in the game. just few weeks of torcher. yes yes yes!! and and and..
hollies are earlier this year!! cant wait for it!! memorable it would be and pictures of course! not to forget. wanna know it? definitely will blog about it on the next chapter! gotta change the gear and get ready to.. hmm.. do what? yeah. this word.

S-T-U-D-Y.

wow. this could be a really long one. well it doesnt matter does it? im not free to update my blog. well in this thing you call LIFE has those times when its sweet, salty, sour and bitter!! yay me!
so no matter what you do. when you feel like youre so down, down, down, down, down till the deeper part of the earth? (exaggerating mode) just take it like a pinch of salt and dont take it too hard. you'll be fine. trust me!

toodles!