buhbye march

yes. my MARCH wasnt as marvelous as it seems.
it was total madness i say.
i repeat. MARCH was totally MAD!
lotsa madness!
wow!
but im glad march is over! lets leave the march madness and look for an A-xotic April??
leave march behind and begin april with a new start!
yippee!

lotsa love,
~baby lyn~

decisions. choices. options.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*

decisions in life.
is like the two diverge roads above.
should i go left?
what happens if i go left?
or should i go right? is it better than left?
curiosity kills the cat they say.
can i take both roads?
no no.
choices. why do you exist?
dilemma? another word? options? i suppose?
making choices arent that bad are they?
well of course choices arent that bad.
its the right choice you gotta choose
i dont know about choices.
but sometimes
its hard and difficult to make choices
not knowing what the consequences will be.
sighs.
but we should be bold enough to take risks in life shouldnt we?
yet we have that feeling of being scared..
what are we afraid of?
why do we feel afraid to take risks?
life is difficult.
those were the words of Scott Peck.
the author of The Road Less Travelled.
This novel is an inspiring novel.
from the first sentence of his introduction
life is difficult?
who doesnt agree with that statement?
life IS difficult!
difficulty is the bridge to failure and success.
at which it is true.
there is much to say on the two diverge roads in life.
but i could not put them in words.

yes! this is THE book.
read it. it tells you about facts of life and life experiences.
its very catchy.
hope you'll enjoy reading it.

lotsa love,
~baby lyn~

*pinky promise*

ssshhh..
please dont tell anyone this? ok? promise?
*does the pinky promise*

************
few minutes later
************

does this look familiar?
aahh yes.. one moment you say," oh no. i wont tell. i'll keep it to myself. i PROMISE.
holy cow! cmon. dont make promises when you dont EVEN know how to do so.
if its a secret keep it as a secret.
lock your mouth with a key and just throw the key away.
dont keep the key and unlock your mouth and tell others what youre NOT suppose to tell.

OOOOOOUUUUUUCCCCCCHHHH!!

thats a whole bucket of blood aite? must be painful been stabbed in the heart eyh?
NGAITEE!
whattaya mean? not through that physical violence by stabbing someone in the heart that way.
*really wish i could though. but i didnt say i could aite?*
nobody knows how others actually feel. how hurt the heart would be.
feelings.
it isnt fair if we take care of other peoples' feelings. we consider about their feelings.
cant they do the same?
and once you've done a mistake.. does the word SORRY actually changes it all?
when in fact the things you do and the words you say will always be remembered??
in each and everyone of us. i BET. no no. i think the word bet isn't appropriate. i am very sure. that every FRIENDSHIP. backstabbing happens.

ahah! dont you agree? friends dont backstab friends?
that is so obvious. why call yourself a friend when you wana tlk shit about your own friend and especially talk behind your friends. having that two-face personality; acting all goody-goody, whats the benefit there? is that what friendship is all about?

lotsa love,
~baby lyn~

buzz-zz-zz

bum-bum-dee-dum-bum-bum-dee-dum-dum!

buzz-buzz

ZZZZZZZZ

ZZZZZZZZ
ZZZZZZZZ

ZZZZZZZZZZZ
ZZZZZZZZZ

BUZZING AROUND
bee-zee-lee like a
BUMBLE BEE!

GOOD THINGS ABOUT THESE
BUMBLE BEES
ARE CAUSE THEIR
HARDWORKING.

is that why they always buzz around?
no no
dont think im talking about

~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.

oh my dashing speed goodness!
BUMBLE BEE!
lolz.
okeyh?

such a relaxing bee eyh?
cool oo..
but hardworking bees bring benefits aite?
i wish i could be as hardworking as those bees.
*sniffs*
isnt he the most adorable thing on earth?
nah. am i exaggerating?
probably i am.
oh well.
talking about this buzzy buzzy beezy lifestyle sure makes you wana go ding-dong knowing what i'd talk about or pretty much know what im gona pen things down. psychic are you? not that close. this MARVELOUS MARCH isnt as marvelous as it seems. a busy month it has been and APRIL would be what? AWESOME APRIL? cant wait for that to happen. STABBING and CHOKING time; in short-KILLING TIME; during the upcoming month due to assignments, preparation for examinations and important events that arent base on school stuff. no credits but just extra activities. sighs. busy much. so yes. i will keep BUZZ-ING around till im really free to actually write a proper blog unlike my previous ones. short and simple.

TTFN!
*TATA FOR NOW!*

lotsa love,
~baby lyn~

i WILL rise

There's a peace I've come to know
Though my heart and flesh may fail
There's an anchor for my soul
I can say "It is well"
Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead
And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles' wings
Before my God fall on my knees
I will rise

There's a day that's drawing near
When this darkness breaks to light
And the shadows disappear
And my faith shall be my eyes
Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

yes dear Lord, i do believe that i will always rise on eagles wings. when i fall. every SINGLE time i fall i know you will always be there for me. to pick me up each and every fall i make. every obstacle that im going through i know that it is part the test. thank you for the trials dear Lord. the trials are ways to open my eyes. to show what is right and what is wrong. thank you dear Father for showing me my loved ones that are always standing by my side through thick and thin. You have given me great people in my life. especially my lovely family and someone special to love.

lotsa love,
~baby lyn~

twist your tongue!

!!HuRRaH!!

isang bagay na gulat ang aking ulo!
naiintindihan mo?

very well. it came across my mind. knowing me when im being random
i tend to think lotsa crap and spill whatever is on my mind.
lotsa people do this for fun.
tongue twister?
ahah!
there you go!

one of the famous tongue twister is
....

SHE SELLS SEA SHELLS ON THE SEA SHORE ,
BUT THE SEA SHELLS THAT SHE SELLS,
ON THE SEA SHORE ARE NOT THE REAL ONES!

thats fine. wana try another one?

I thought a thought.
But the thought I thought wasn't the thought I thought I thought.
If the thought I thought I thought had been the thought I thought, I wouldn't have thought so much.

i thought that this tongue twisting thingy of the thought
wasnt that bad at all.
try doing peter?

Peter Piper picked a peck of pickled peppers,
if Peter Piper picked a peck of pickled peppers,
wheres the peck of pickled peppers Peter Piper picked?

did you get your tongue twisted?

i was really bored just now.
so i was being random.
and wrote my status which was really confusing
and some thought is was a tongue twisting.
in fact it was just a random thought
at which it does makes sense!

i know you dont know what i know and what i know knowing you not knowing what i know =)

lotsa love,
~baby lyn~

fatigue

~hOLa~

here i am. back again. its almost the end of march now. and i feel time is ticking away quite fast this month. prolly cause im too busy with my own stuff. ngaitee. starting to have black patches on my eyes? that balck circle thingy around your eyes when you have lack of sleep due to certain reasons? yes? no? it is obvious that i am pretty much busy this month. even if i wana update my blog i cant. saya berasa sangat letih. oleh itu saya tidak mempunyai masa untuk "memblog". memblog? new word eyh? well at least i dont waste my time always going out without any reason right? spending money all the time. i would if i want to but i just dont want. im still young. my future is still waiting for me. bak kata pepatah susah-susah dahulu, senang-senang kemudian. KAN? everyone say it that way. exam is around the corner. not exactly around the corner though. however i feel its sooo coming like totally its on the way.. i shouldnt think too much should i? thinking too much without able to take action about it also would be useless aite? you betcha'! for the first time i aint got any idea of what to write. normally i'll go insane and continue click-clacking away on the keyboard of my lappy. not today i guess? maybe its cause there are so much to do and so little time. and now i've used up all my energy. feeling effin' tired. so what am i gona do now? not gona watch tv? nah. im lazy. what? seriously? lazy to watch tv? uhuh i am. i'll get back when i have something to write aite? this blog is like a teeniee winiee diary to me. but of course im not that stupid to write whatsoever personal blah blah blah like everything inside here. gosh! aite then!

~be right back soon!~

lotsa love,
~baby lyn~

you.me.us.them.world.

aww. lovely picture of this young girls right? laughing at each other.
how lovely is that? looking at this picture just makes me recall the memories i had with my close girlfriends. you know who you are if you're reading this. i miss those primary school times. where all of us used to play around and joke around. making fun of the teachers. goodness! how mean were we? and now.. we're growing up.. acting all mature and stuff.. going our separate ways.. we're all trying to find time so we could all catch up and start telling each other stories.. the picture on the right? take a look? we look so happy jolly jelly beans. my friends and i. yes! we tried jumping many times to take a perfect picture of us jumping like the high school musical.. at last finally.. nice aite? would you believe it? how many years have we been studying together in the same school? and now look where we are? different school. to be specific. different college. taking different courses. sighs. bummer. im sure all of us girls have been thinking what would we be like in 5-10 years. *thinking deeply* everyone would definitely want to start work and reach their goals by finishing their studies. some might even want to further their studies to another higher level. wait. or or or.. can you girls imagine that all of you would be attending my wedding like this picture?
awww... would you girls be there for me during my wedding?? hahahah! i love you girls. theres this quote at which i wana quote; friends are friends who believe in your dreams and helping you make your dreams come true.. all i wana say is that the friends i have in my life at which i allow you all to enter into my life is a gift from God. God lets people come into our life but it is our decision to either accept them or leave them.. get me? i do realize that the teens nowadays do favour "popularity" and stuff. do they? much agreed dont you think? i presume it right? no? correct me if im wrong. but that is just my point of view and everyone deserves to have their own views. need i say more? i'd prefer being in my own world having average number of few friends. being in a big circle of friends? mmm. needless to say i kinda doubt it. pointless cause you'll never know. one is jealous much? one becomes envious of another? too many cook spoils the soup? does that even relate to what im saying? dont bother. some people. are just good actors and actresses that they could have an award of having two faces. BRILLIANT. ABSOLUTELY BRILLIANT! BRAVA'! i must say. lets give 'em a STANDING OVATION! MAGNEFIQUE! PERFECTO'! my my. very well indeed. i am human. humans are not perfect. conclusion? im not perfect. it is not my problem when anyone dislikes me or feels jealous of me. does it even make me bother much? ignorance is my middle name. whatever shit about me goes around in which i myself know its not true and that some people just tend to believe in those stories without even bothering to ask me themselves; what a joke right?~anyway.. would that bring me down? go figure! it makes me have more confident in me-self.. why? theres only one reason why others get jealous of you.. it is when you have something that that particular person dont have because they cant have what you have. why bother being jealous and go ruining other peoples' life out of jealousy? thats ridiculous. as in RI-DI-CU-LOUS. immature. wouldnt that make you sort of a.. mmm.. whats the word? a LOSER? dont be someone you're not. just be yourself? seriously. dont get jealous just cause others are living a life at which they can live with and dont get jealous with others just cause their lives are way better than yours? walk the talk. dont be some heartless person trying to spark the fire and making a dirty mess. not worth it i tell you. it aint worth it. no no. think wisely. think before you act. goodness. dont go bothering others like as if you dont have a life of your own and act like as if you have got nothing to do? God has given you life. treasure it. do something thats worth it. dont go wasting your time doing worthless things. need i add on? you dont know how much i'd love to blabber on. but oh well. times ticking and would it even be worth it writing all of it down? *PAUSE* nah!! well dudes and dudettes.. friends whom i love dearly.. i wont call you friends if you werent my friend aite? ding-dong. friendship is all i could ever treasure. the memories we've all been together. though we have misunderstandings yet we forgive one another. forget the past, look forward. but remember.. once you're hurt it is hard to mend that hole in the heart. it is like a piece of paper. once it is crumpled you cant be able to make the paper as smooth as how it was. there will definitely be crumpled marks there. it is the same as how we feel. i was suppose to write about my memories with my friends and all. however, this is the outcome and it wasnt about anything at all was it? hence, it is just how rational i would want to be and being considerate to all friendships and relationships.

lotsa love,
~baby lyn~

distant

i realised why we tend to distant ourselves
from a particular person:-

• we HATE that particular person; depending on what that particular person does? lie? backstabbbing? losing trust?
  
• we want to MOVE ON due to certain reasons which is related to the first reason. it doesn't mean when you're distant from that particular person you'll just die and not have other cliques?
  
• we feel SCARED to fall in LOVE deeply with that particular person; at which that is another story and doesn't relate to the first. but does this third reason make sense?
  

does this explain why

im distant?

lotsa love,
~baby lyn~

fun?

aww ggaawwddd.. damn hardcore.. fuhh.. what a restless day.. *phew* a brilliant day it was..
with friends of mine.. at which i hardly spend my time with.. feels gewd being away though for awhile.. its not like i often can go out that way.. so this is the moment where i finally was able to go out.. i have not actually gone out though.. well here i am stuck at home again.. back to my world.. haish.. oh well.. thats how life is.. you cant be living in a world full of just fairytales and fairies flying eveywhere.. pots at the end of rainbows.. just another day.. ~sighs~ talking about rainbow.. my friend managed to take a picture of half a rainbow? oopsie. half a rainbow sounds so wrong. yadi yada yada yada. lululululululu. writing just for the sake of writing? hmmm. lemme see. would it be nice if an innocent lil girl just sudddenly out of nowwhere say," would you puh-leese shaddap??" total blurness. and you would go "WTF??" okey?? that was total random. lookie look look! nice rainbow right? nature is really dam beautiful. appreciate it much? yes! i think my boiling temperature had finally cool down. yeah. you dont burst to people for no reason when youre upset. you either keep it to yourself or make things worst by screaming at the person. despite the fact that im a very rude person i'll just leave it behind then. you cant expect every moment to be perfect right? no no. you cant. somewhere over the rainbow.. *playing in my head* it was a great day spending time with friends of mine. we catch up and lotsa jokes. drove to the beach. an hour drive there. the road was fine. it aint that rough. beaches in my world aint awesome compared to beaches like they have in other countries. beaches in other countries are super duper nice. the sand? well i watch on tv is amazing. all i could do for now is just to watch tv and dream about it. aww.. what a pity.. its ok.. "dont stop.. believing!!" GLEE.. you rock! no no.. i wont stop believing. walk the talk is a solution. yesh! so where was i? i know this post isnt as interesting as others. im mostly talking crap. most probably cause i didnt plan it or something. it doesnt matter does it? this is part of the beach that my friends and i headed to. we waited for sunsett. dont you just love sunset? its really wonderful. you cant just take your eyes off the lovely sun. going down and saying buhbye. awww.the picture below are them. it aint clear. more pictures that are clear will be uploaded. i wont upload all of them. just a few. pictures are memories. it makes you just wana go back to that moment.

the beach. just makes you clear your mind would it? one thing thats nice about the beach. when you sit there alone. listening to the waves. hearing your thoughts. and when you feel like screaming your heart out at which you did. the waves just swallow your screams with their waves. brilliant? yeah. it doesnt answer back. beaches will always bring memories as well. makes you recall what you've done at the beach. wow! i think thats all for now. by the time i go on. i think i'll only bore each one of you. so to stop the boredom. i'll end it. ~END~

lotsa love,
~baby lyn~

Zzz..Zzz

i
am
so
sleepy
and
as
lazy
as
snoopy
so
now
i
wana
bid
goodnight
to
everyone
and
send
my
love
to
those
i
love
~you know who you are~

lotsa love,
~baby lyn~

maybe

There I was waiting for a chance

Hopin' that you'll understand

The things I wanna say

As my love went stronger than before

I wanna see you more and more each day

But you closed your door

Why don't you try to open up your heart?

I won't take so much of your time

Maybe it's wrong to say "Please love me, too"

'Coz I know you'll never do

Somebody else is waitin' there inside for you

Maybe it's wrong to love you more each day

'Coz I know she's here to stay

But

I know to whom you should belong

But my love is strong

I don't know if this is wrong

I believed what you said to me

"We should set each other free"

That's how you want it to be..

yikes!

ayai-yayayai..
my-my. look how long have i not update my blog?
what is zee date today?
it is seventeen of march..
wee!! what have i been doing?

....a lawt!!..

i miss blogging though..
i have been really busy lately.
often hangout at my friend's place
not for FUN..
to plan and arrange scores.
see my friends and i are coursemates.
we're working on this upcoming event.
studying full time.
practicing.
preparing for exams.
while working on this upcoming event and organizing it.
whattaya think?
lawts to think aite?
uhuh.
whats the solution?

...divide yer' time...
use your time wisely

thats right.
well.
i could write more though.
just feel like writing down something before going off to bed.
i just miss my friends a lot.
and i feel i haven't been going out with them lately.
i've been too busy.
i needa catch up do i?
till then..

nitey nitez!

lotsa love,
~baby lyn

slipped away

i miss you..
so badly..
i remember clearly the day we just slip away
in a blink of an eye
a terrible impact it was
when it happened
it was the day i start to realize that things change
and it wouldnt be the same as how it would be
i wont forget you
cause it would be sad doing so
i hope you could hear me
as you are reading this
i didnt get to kiss you goodbye on the head
i dont know whether we will
ever get to see each other again.
but i wish i could see you
even though i cant?
i never meant to slip away outta your life.
now you're gone?
now we're gone?
somewhere where i cant bring you back?
where you're not coming back?

*Kim Bum Soo Bogoshipda*
Sarang Hae Yo

lotsa love,

~baby lyn~

killing time

i
am
effin'
busy!!

so what does this mean? yes. when you're busy it means less time to blog. as you can see i have not been blogging much lately. this explains i have less time. and i have been killing time with those crescendos and decrescendos on the piano and trying hard to make the violin sing by playing it as smoothly as i could to make it very dolce. so yeah. my march posts wouldnt be as much as i have written for the previous month. but if i do have time. i will try to blog. no promises. should i curse? should i not? hmmm. damn! today is february the tenth. well obviously. and we had higher learning presentation. not my turn yet. tee hee!! my friends and i attended a very interesting event ast saturday.. we went for the TUKU KAME concert!! it was really awesome and we loved every idea of his songs. jerry kamit and his group were incredibly awesome. we tool several pictures with them. we are proud of Tuku Kame because they have made Malaysia.. to be specific.. SARAWAK.. land of the hornbills.. proud.. they won lotsa medals.. and they should be looked up.. look at their effort there? march isnt a time for me to go click clacking on the keypad of the laptop.. *grumbling* my friends and i are way too busy.. preparing for exams.. arranging scores.. getting ready for our upcoming event that all of us are excited about.. we are looking forward to it.. we're keeping our fingers cross and we hope we can make it a success.. we will.. we will.. we have to walk the talk.. dear Lord please guide us through this event.. help us balance with our time and to make use of our time wisely.. musicians should sleep less and practice more? a quote the higher learnings will always remember eyh? yeah yeah. practice makes perfect.. at which we are doing it.. we just have to.. dear Lord be with us everyday and watc us through the night. Guardian angel. i pray. like a little child that things will always go smoothly.. and if things dont go the way it is expected please help me to be calm. thank you.

lotsa love,
~baby lyn~

cheers daddy!

you do realize the picture above right?
yes yes.
this is my "young" dad.
naughty eyh?
now this is my fabulous daddy!!
how young is he??
his birthday falls on the
second of march!
not gona tell you the year
when he was born.
its a secret.
so yeah.
ssshhhhhhhh.

~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.
A Dad gives hope
When life is low
A Dad's a place
Where you can go
A Dad is honest
A Dad is true
A Dad is precious
My DAD is You
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.

If I could choosE the perfect Dad
There's no one I would rather
Have a Daddy, than you!

I find myself wondering...
Did I give you your due..
For all that you've done for me
Did I ever thank you?

For all of my childhood memories
For helping me deal with life's stresses
For helping me accept my defeats
And celebrate my successes?

Or for teaching me the value of hard work,
Good judgement, courage, and being true
The laughter, smiles, and quiet times we've shared
Did I ever thank you?

If I have forgotten, I'm thanking you now
You taught me right from wrong.
I hope you know how much you're loved and appreciated
I hope you, instinctively, knew it all along.

Happy Birthday, Daddy!

i love you!

i remember you used to give me kisses this way when i was like this.
exactly like this.
i love you daddy.
but now im a young lady.
i will always be your little princess.
your only girl.
daddy's little girl.

lotsa love,
~daughter davelyn~